Update time

Alright, I figured a blog post would be the best way to settle things. Lots people been asking me what I'm up to, where I'm at, when we can meet up, how's things etc. I can't answer all texts and I'm not always in front of my laptop altho I leave it online to take messages from MSN. And my YM doesn't work cause some idiot at my uncle's office toggled with my computer to shift all programmes to another laptop and ended up NOT doing it cause my uncle said to not give me that laptop at the last minute because he was saving it for a staff member. No worries there, just that I wished the technician never toggled with it in the first place.


Now people, let me tell you a bit MORE about my family as they are the reason why I can't really be myself. At all.


My family's full of conservative and superficial people. The kind that believe an Indian girl should only stay at home, should not go out at all even if it is just to catch a movie or hang with her friends. Which is really quite a pain for me cause I have a huge group of friends from all over. And I have lotsa guy friends. Another bane for them. They don't like it. But then again, I've always been more of a tomboy rather than a feminine female.


My sponsors haven't kicked in funds just yet and there's a good chance I'm getting off the scholarship. My grandmum's confiscated my ATM card and as such I'm only getting 50 ringgit a WEEK. Yes, you heard that right. Even my sponsors pay me more than that. And if I want to double that to a 100 a week, I have to lose enough weight to hit a weight of 60kgs. I've lost two already. But that's because I'm sick and I haven't eaten in 2 days. Yes, my family doesn't like me the way I am, or how I look, so to get more cash, I have to change the way I look. Heh.


If I stay at home and stay online the whole time, they call me self-absorbed. But I won't let them control that. This is my only window to sanity.


So my atm card's gone (limited supply of cash) and I can't go out. If I do, there's some noise. At any rate, I don't really feel quite like going out. I'm kinda weak with the lack of food and I need to lose to double the amount of cash I'm currently getting.


Apart from that, my grandad's sick. And I need to be on the standby, either to guard the house or do hospital duty by accompanying him there. He's had a heart attack and the doctor in charge wants to have a family discussion about his condition. Because apparently, the stent placed in his heart from the last op has collapsed. And they need to do another op to guarantee longer survival. But an op in his condition is deadly. So yeah...more stuff to think about right there.


At any rate people, I miss you guys a lot. I DO want to spend time with you all but I just can't. Not now. If you guys really wanna talk etc gimme a buzz, call, send messages over MSN or feel free to drop by my place whenever I'm in of course.


Tis a trying time now.